Posted by: Jaeson D. Rau | August 21, 2014

What We Need To Learn From Robin Williams Suicide

I did not know Robin Williams. I did watch a number of the movies he starred in, but truth be told, he was not one of my favorite actors. I don’t think I ever once went out of my way to see any of the movies he was in, although if I had, it would have to be Good Will Hunting, I did actually love that movie. Yet, even though I did not have a connection to Robin as an actor, I sit here very moved and deeply touched over his passing, feeling as though a teammate were now gone. Because, for the last fourteen years I have battled with depression and anxiety. And, although I don’t know exactly what Robin had been through that made him want to take his life. I know what it’s like to want to put an end to the pain. To feel so alone that you can’t hear the people who love you, when they are looking you in the face telling you that they love you so much. To want a break from the walls closing in on you, the voices, the darkness that tries to creep in every now and then………………. I know what it’s like.

And I know what it’s like when people refuse to believe that anything is wrong with you.  I know what it’s like when people say you are a loser and you’re using this as an excuse. And I know what it’s like when even a judge  refuses to consider your situation because there’s nothing to see, nothing physically broken. I know what it’s like to be so tired that getting out of bed to go take a piss is a chore that requires so much mental and physical exertion I can’t describe it with words. To feel so beaten down that when something as simple as your cell phone rings your heart starts beating so fast it feels like it’s going to come out your chest, you can’t breathe and 101 things start going through your mind, 101 things that you would rather not have going through your mind. Because of these things I have been through, I know what it’s like when you finally know in your heart that society is sweeping something under the rug, hoping the problem goes away.

In the past few days I have learned something from Robin that I feel is very profound, and the reason I feel it is so profound is that Robin, by society’s standard was successful, okay actually he was mega successful and would’ve had no reason to take his life. We have been taught that we gauge our success by how much money we have, how famous we are, what letters are behind our name, what kind of vehicle we drive, and a whole host of other material comparisons. And we have been taught that with success comes happiness. If you sit down and think about it, we actually gauge our happiness, and plan our life around how much money we have. So yes, I do believe that by society’s definition Robin Williams should have been happy and leading a near perfect life.

I’m confused because Robin Williams just proved that theory wrong.

In fact, what Robin Williams just did was prove that a wealthy celebrity could not live with himself any longer, even though he was “successful” and should be “happy” by societies standard. Robin Williams just smacked society in the face. Robin Williams, as clear as day, just yelled at us and said “money and success do not make you who you are and do not make you happy”. Robin’s death has not gone unnoticed, just take a look around, people are in shock. Seems no matter where you go on the Internet, even this blog, there’s something to do with Robins passing. People are in absolute disbelief by the millions.

But nobody is talking.

Seems nobody talks anymore.

At least not about anything important.

Major depression is the leading cause of disability for Americans between the ages of 15 and 44, according to the CDC. And the rate of major depression has also more than doubled in only 11 years. We need to change the conversation from “oh my God Robin Williams killed himself”, to, “oh my god  mental illness really is becoming prevalent in our society and maybe we should do something about it”. If we continue ignoring this conversation there is gonna be an awful lot more suffering going on.

We are not living in harmony with this planet or each other. We have gotten completely off track. The banks, corporations and pharmaceutical companies have lied to us and gotten us to believe in a system and a way of life that is absolutely insane. The people we look to for guidance are actually manipulating us. The system we live in is insane, because the people making the rules are insane, and mental illness is becoming a byproduct of that system. The human body is an amazing machine and will always tell you when something is wrong.

Mental illness is the body’s way of saying “You Are Not Living In Harmony With That Which Is Around You”. I can attest to that personally.

Nobody wants to have this conversation because if we start having this conversation it creates many other conversations and I just don’t think people have been ready to have them. It’s time we have them now, and we have to do it whether we like it or not.

What we need to learn from Robin Williams suicide is that money and success are not the most important things like we’ve been taught.

What we need to learn from  Robin Williams suicide is that something is wrong with our way of life on this planet and we need to talk about it.

What we need to learn from Robin Williams suicide is that even though you can’t see or touch mental illness it is real and it will continue tearing families apart until we do something about it.

Men, we especially need to start talking. We have been lied to for so long about how we are supposed to behave that it will take generations for us to make it right, the sooner we start talking the sooner we can fix this shit. Let’s not let Robin Williams suicide be in vain, let’s start talking about mental illness and how it’s affecting our society and why. We definitely need to talk about the why

Just for starters





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